¨I still hurt each day, I still get flashbacks, I still cry in private¨ A grieving Willis Raburu opens up

Healing is a process and it has varied impact on its victims. Citizen TV´s popular show host, Willis Raburu has opened up on his healing which might require him to seek writing as his therapy.

In a series of Insta updates, the all-round journalist started off by opening up on his regrets.

I used to take some things for granted like walking with a bounce on your step and having a good day or a good night´s sleep, or having the ability to smile without feeling guilty. These are the pages of my life.

The Citizen TV anchor went ahead to admit that being a creative mind, writing might be his only path to fruitful healing.

I am a creative, so to heal, sometimes I have to write and I have to share because that´s just how I know how to deal with. If I don´t, then I close myself and I can sink into depression and angst can take over.

Giving reference to American media executive, Oprah Winfrey´s words, he recalled how he would question people who resorted to writing when in pain.

You know when Tyler Perry said that he heard Oprah say that ´writing is therapeutic´, I thought, ´how can this be?´ How can putting you feelings down be helpful?

Before admitting:

I tell you what though, it is imperative that you find an outlet to deal with your pain. And one day when we are ready, we will share our whole story. I still hurt each day, I still get flashbacks, I still cry, I still grieve and I do so privately but the effect and outlet are sometimes public and I´m not ashamed of it.

With pain and grief in his heart, Willis poses:

Will I ever be the same? Never, but I will be that´s what I´m trying to do. I´m just trying to be. So I´ll keep writing, I´ll keep sharing because we must embrace pain. We must we can wish it away, pray it away, hide it away, shame it away, commonize it, we must go through it.