Why Maureen Waititu regrets attempting suicide days before son’s 4th birthday

Maureen Waititu has seen it all, both good and bad; but through it all her support system has always been available whenever she was broken.

Having been dumped by the father of her 2 boys was no joke, I mean, any woman in her shoes would tell you the same; but what matters is how one handles the break up.

Sadly for Ms Waititu things were not so easy. This is because she watched her long term boyfriend move on with Corazon Kwamboka barely even weeks after parting ways.

Maureen Waititu photoshoot with True Love Magazine

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We however cannot confirm who is telling the truth between the two; but as for now we get to focus on how Maureen and her suicidal attempts. Speaking through a new YouTube show alongside Milly chebby; the mother of two narrated how she tried taking her own life due to the heartbreak she was going through.

Regrets but thankful

When depressed suicidal thoughts become a norm and at that moment it’s easy to lose yourself hence making bad decisions. Despite trying to end her life twice, Maureen Waititu now says she is grateful and happy she never left her kids to suffer.

Without her by their side probably life would have been both rough and tough all because she was selfish. Speaking about her final and failed suicide attempt, the gorgeous lady said;

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 I remember the final attempt that gave me a wakeup call, I went and I bought kerosene and I wanted to torch my car up and when I left the gas station Shell, it rained. It was 12th October last year, eight days before my son’s fourth birthday

Of course heartbreaks are painful and devastating but through it all, Ms Waititu says she overcame this thanks to her kids. The lass went on to say;

My worst moment is when my heart was breaking. It’s real and people don’t understand that as a mum if you are not okay, your babies are not okay. And my first born son especially he saw me at my worst. This is September/October last year and I actually tried to take my life twice all because my heart was breaking.

Now that she has learnt the importance of not trusting people with her heart; her babies on the other hand continue giving a reason to keep going everyday.

I was so hurt and the person I expected to be there for me and understand my pain wasn’t there for me. My kids kept me going,”

¨He was what I needed at that point in my life¨ Maureen Waititu does not regret falling in love with ex, Frankie

Kenyan social media influencer, Maureen Waititu has opened up on having fought for her relationship, tooth and nail until she could do it no more.

During her interview with Grace Msalame, the mother of two admitted that at first, her love bubble with Frankie, was the best gift she had at that time.

However, with time, came duties and responsibilities, among them parenthood, which none of them had experienced previously.

When we became parents, things changed – Maureen Waititu explains

Struggles

Juggling parenthood with career life proved too tough a battle to win, eventually escalating into a pool of problems.

But of course, he was a very nice guy, charming. He did the most with the dinners and all that then we became parents and of course, things are different. You know challenges are there. We were both so new to parenthood and here I am trying to build my career in Law. He is also building his career and problems started coming in slowly by slowly. But I felt like instead of getting better, it got worse until whatever happened, happened eventually.

Well, for the YouTuber, everything happened for a reason and does not regret having shared those moments she did, with the popular gym instructor, Frankie.

It´s always a difficult question because I look back and I´m like, it doesn´t make any sense, but in a way, I attracted him into my life because he was what I needed at that point in my life. And that´s the importance of dealing with cycles and dealing with whatever is going on within you because whatever is within you, is what goes on on the outside.

I attracted him into my life because he was what I needed at that point in my life – Maureen Waititu opens up

Faith

Narrating the order of events at the time, Maureen explained how she gave God a timeline, after which, she would lose hope.

 I gave him a timeline and I told him ´God, if by this time, you don´t hit me with a big nil sign or a train to tell me what direction to go, I don´t know what I´ll do.´ And he´s so gracious. You know when they say women leave a situation in bits, first a suitcase at the door. We fight till the very end.

Closing off, Maureen realized that it was no longer about her and her preferences, but the kids and her future.

And I fought Grace. I contemplated, I moved back and forth. I did everything I could. Eventually I figured it´s not about me anymore. It´s about my kids, my future.

Maureen Waititu with ex, Frankie and their two boys