“Too much pain to handle,” heavily pregnant Ruth Matete opens up about life after losing dear husband

Pregnant pastor Ruth Matete has been facing each day as it comes. This is after losing her husband the late pastor Beloved John Apewajoye; to a tragic gas explosion that left him with serious burns a few months ago.

However what Ruth Matete will tell you is that losing a husband; someone she was closely attached to and pregnant for is not as easy as many think. After his death the pastor decided to withdraw all her social media activities until just recently; when she opted to come back.

As seen on a few posts on her page, Ms Matete went on to urge fans not to ask questions nor condole her as the pain was still too fresh.

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The life after

Well, being hormonal and still in mourning has not made life any easier for Ruth Matete. Thanks to a new post shared on her page; the singer cum preacher goes on to admit that life without her husband has been quite a journey.

According to the soon to be mum, some days are hard; while others seem okay for a few minutes before reality kicks in. She went on to open up about this saying;

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Truth is some days are very hard. When death knocks at your door, there’s nothing you can do. Some days, voices in my head tell me am taking too long in this mourning phase. But I have made up my mind not to be hard on myself. I patiently wait for the day God will heal me totally. But the again, some days I doubt if this kind of pain can totally heal. So I ask God to give me a new heart instead.
Till then, I’ll smile when God gives me a chance to. I will laugh when God allows me to. But above all, I will keep serving Him.

But with the baby around the corner; Ruth might just receive the joy she has been waiting for!

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Pauline Syombua

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